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Well... 2024 was definitely hard for me. Like really...

Started bad. My aunt's husband died. Then a month later my beloved granny... Still haven't fully goten ober that. Doubt I ever will.

Finally graduated. Had the best grades, did really good on the exams. I'm really proud of myself. 100 points on biology exam! That's the best result!

Moved to Poland. Now I'm closer to my sister (only physically, not mentally) and further from my parents. Especially from my father but it's always been that way.

Found friends. Although it was hard since school's bullying has a lasting effect. I'm still struggling with panic attacks and fear of people in general. But my friends are great. Metalheads like me. On 15th of March, right after my birthday, we'll go to a concert. My first ever concert!

I'm working on myself. On living like I want, not like my parents want me to. I had my ear pierced! That's something! Now I'm thinking about dyeing my hair blue (some parts of it) or getting a little tattoo.

Also saving money to get some psychological therapy. Because I feel like my problems won't go away anywhere without professional help. I'm still ashamed of myself, my past, my emotions and have some other problems I should deal with.

Well... That's probably it. Hoping 2025 will be successful for me. Because my life is finally starting over.

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4 hours ago, CreepyDarkPrincess said:

Well... 2024 was definitely hard for me. Like really...

Started bad. My aunt's husband died. Then a month later my beloved granny... Still haven't fully goten over that. Doubt I ever will.

Finally graduated. Had the best grades, did really good on the exams. I'm really proud of myself. 100 points on biology exam! That's the best result!

Moved to Poland. Now I'm closer to my sister (only physically, not mentally) and further from my parents. Especially from my father but it's always been that way.

Found friends. Although it was hard since school's bullying has a lasting effect. I'm still struggling with panic attacks and fear of people in general. But my friends are great. Metalheads like me. On 15th of March, right after my birthday, we'll go to a concert. My first ever concert!

I'm working on myself. On living like I want, not like my parents want me to. I had my ear pierced! That's something! Now I'm thinking about dyeing my hair blue (some parts of it) or getting a little tattoo.

Also saving money to get some psychological therapy. Because I feel like my problems won't go away anywhere without professional help. I'm still ashamed of myself, my past, my emotions and have some other problems I should deal with.

Well... That's probably it. Hoping 2025 will be successful for me. Because my life is finally starting over.

Congratulations on acing your biology exam and graduating. Sorry about your granny.  

I think you'll find that your life really begins once you've graduated from school. It's an exciting time, you can finally put all that bullying and bad teenage shit behind you and choose your own destiny. You've got your whole life in front of you, and you're smart, once you get settled in you'll be on your way. What some of us wouldn't give to go back and be young again and not make all the same mistakes. And you say you've got friends, which is half the battle right there. Friends are so important. Cherish them, find time for them, don't let yourself get so caught up with the mundanities of adult life that they drift away. Enjoy your first concert, enjoy making your new life in Poland, and thanks for sharing. 

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Gosh what a roller coaster year you had.

my condolences on your losses and congratulations on your graduation and big changes! Starting a new chapter can be exhilarating in so many ways. I’ve learned to just be open to whatever the universe throws my way, taking the bad with the good.

Best wishes and your new lot in life and thank you for sharing!

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Hey, congratulations on your new start. I just want to add one thing to what everybody else said -- don't be too hard on yourself. It's good to be able to be self-critical, but don't make a habit out of beating yourself up, feeling ashamed, any of that. It can be a hard habit to break and it can hold you back. Good luck with everything. Enjoy your first show, that's a great milestone. Who are you going to see?

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10 hours ago, FatherAlabaster said:

Hey, congratulations on your new start. I just want to add one thing to what everybody else said -- don't be too hard on yourself. It's good to be able to be self-critical, but don't make a habit out of beating yourself up, feeling ashamed, any of that. It can be a hard habit to break and it can hold you back. Good luck with everything. Enjoy your first show, that's a great milestone. Who are you going to see?

We're going to see "Patriarkh". It's a Polish band. It was once called "Batushka". I've learnt about this band thanks to my friends 

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31 minutes ago, CreepyDarkPrincess said:

We're going to see "Patriarkh

I saw them some years ago when they were still 'Batushka'. There was a falling out between the main guitarist/writer and the singer and I'm not sure which faction 'Patriarch' represents, but they put on a great show back in the day and you should enjoy this.

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